To Whom Shall I Go?

At alone times I squander my time wondering,

What’s next, where do I go, what do I do next

Spending my imperfect time I seek perfect direction

Looking into my life’s distance, for some glimpse,

Some view, of what is to come. But I see not on my own

Seeking completeness striving for more, for newness

For something to fill my needs

Looking into things and people and places

For reason and relationship and home

Yet I find not the completion that I seek

With future unsure and past fading away

The now becoming lonely and unsure

Emptiness looms, lacking of direction and belonging;

Wandering and false attachment to “more” looms ahead

Yet deep inside the longing calls still and I must listen closely

This quiet and deep rooted murmur of longing

Seems always there

As it was planted in my soul long before I was born

Never satisfied by mere searching and striving

For the more of here

I must let go of my own time and my blind striving

To listen to this longing, to find this direction I seek

Intently I must listen and look with ears and eyes of faith

To hear the One who knows me and calls my name

And by clasping the hand which always reaches out

Leading me gently, drawing me close and leading me home

The path will become clear and be illuminated by His love

If I do not reach for Him, and clasp His hand

Following closely As He leads me forth

Where will the blind path I follow, ever lead me?

For if I do not look and listen for a call greater

Than of this world, greater by far than myself

Where will I go? What will I find? Where will I end?

Without His lead, His hand, all is unclear, unsound, unsafe.

If not to and with You then by myself shall I live?

For If not to You oh Lord and Savior

Then to whom shall I go?

For You alone have the words of eternal life.

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